Spring Break is over : P !

[Better write while I can : ) !! ...specially since it takes me forever to do it... ]

“After a while, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and changing a soul. And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security. And you begin to understand that kisses aren’t contracts, and presents aren’t promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head held high and your eyes open, with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. You learn to build your road on today because tomorrow’s ground is often too uncertain and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really do have worth and that with every goodbye, you change.”

I found this in a good friend’s AIM profile. I don’t know where he got it from, but I thought it was a little unsettling.. and brilliant. I finished my reading for tonight, so I thought I’d experiment with this quote and find out why it stood out to me.
Minino and I went to see a movie on Saturday, V for Vendetta. It had the same effect on me that this quote had… I suppose it’s that eye-opening effect… that so many people are on unhealthy relationships. Quotes and movies like these make me wonder why people enter (and even worse, stay on) a relationship like that… hmm.. why would I? I suppose we would all make that mistake for the same type of reasons… The quote brought some of them up: loneliness, a need for stability or to heal from other relationships, a tendency to find some self-worth somewhere other than in one's self…
The sad thing is that this quote has a terrible mixture of hope and despair! Relationships in this person’s eyes are everything but secure or edifying, aside from the inner (depressive?) strength that these negative situations have produced. So this person is getting into all kinds of harmful relationships in the hope of finding growth and worth and stability? Is it me or does this whole idea just not make any sense at all?!?
And yet it’s so understandable. And it is true that many people would identify with this quote. Any dead end alley has the potential of becoming a way out for someone who feels lost. It’s such a horrible, never-ending process…
I wonder if it’s a good thing that people find tragedy so appealing. Are we perpetuating the problem?




But well…
A little biographical section. Let’s see…


* Went to Tulsa last weekend… The boy’s parents are both very nice. Very good food… especially that Italian restaurant.. good stuff! Tulsa is a nice quiet place… Minino took me to a strange-looking campus (with a strange history too) Fun road trip. I didn’t drive... hehe… he wouldn’t let me. I wonder if Janie or Fer have been talking to him… lol

* Came back and slept in most days… General laziness. Awesome, refreshing, general laziness. And Minino and I spent a lot of time together, which was very very nice.

* I still don’t have my cell phone… so I feel a little out of the loop… but I did go out with the A-Psi alumni on Thursday… it was fun. I was the only girl there for the first two hrs, though… but they are all great people, and it was nice to see them all again. Then we went to Hard Rock Café on Sat. Didn’t get too far ahead in my reading this week… :-P But it was spring break. I had a good time.

* We have 7 weeks of classes left. Scary.