lunes, julio 31, 2006

"El cielo esta cansado ya de ver/ La lluvia caer/ Y cada día que pasa es uno mas/ Parecido a ayer"

Esa fue Shakira... en sus tiempos de poetiza.. Ahora es seguidora de masas.. una evolución extraña. Igual... creo que el cielo esta cansado, pero satisfecho. Ha estado lloviendo... lloviendo... lloviendo... Dicen que la lluvia es llanto divino. El Señor debe estar delirantemente contento o inconsolablemente triste. Han llovido mares. Personalmente creo que son lágrimas de felicidad; no pueden ser gotas de amargura las que traen tanta bendición. ¡Es época de lluvia! En los alrededores de esta enorme ciudad, los campesinos alaban a Dios… rezan en la catedral del centro… prenden velas con manos temblorosas, pero no de temor. Es el gozo de tener un poco de lo que siempre falta.

Ojala no necesitase escasez alguna para agradecer a Dios por todo lo que tengo. He estado tan preocupada por mi joven economía y por la posibilidad que ésta ha causado de no poder ir a la universidad el próximo año, que poco a poco me he olvidado de disfrutar el verano… ¿Qué querría hacer si no tuviese tiempo libre? Querría usarlo para estar aquí. Querría no tener que hacer nada. Querría hacer las cosas poco a poco, sin prisa... sin necesidad de efectividad alguna. Y eso es lo que he hecho. Y tampoco me ha gustado mucho. ¿Por qué será? Creo que quiero estar ocupada cuando estoy aquí y tener más tiempo cuando estoy fuera. Me aburro aquí y me canso allá. Necesito un balance. Quizá debería quedarme en Boston alguna vez durante algún verano y estar por mi cuenta con todo este tiempo. Venir a visitar a mi familia gran parte del tiempo, pero quedarme un poquito sola un mes.. Tal vez sea capaz de disfrutarlo un poco mas… no sé. Hay que intentarlo.


En el primer piso se escuchan las voces del noticiero. Raúl Castro Cruz tiene el poder! Cuba tiene vicepresidente… y éste tiene el poder. ¡Qué cosas! Cuba, otra vez sin elecciones. Hablando de escasez… En todo caso, es hora de apreciar... de agradecer y apreciar.. y sacar ventaja del momento y sus bendiciones. Hm... me pregunto dónde se puede comprar hena..


Es hora de salir. El tiempo está hermoso afuera.

sábado, julio 29, 2006

San Antonio Pics :-)


Ok... we got the pictures!! yay... lol... well... some of them, at least... More to come later... when we find that cd... lol...

Click here to see the ones I have so far :-P

jueves, julio 27, 2006

Ya necesito que la escuela empieze.

Me estoy volviendo loca!!

No luck with those pictures yet.
School starts on the 14th... International Orientation on the 11th. Im getting there the first week of September. Cant wait to have something productive to do. I really do think home has some type of soporific effect on me. Been feeling yucky lately... I get nothing done here. I just really dont feel like it. And then I complain about being bored. Women. LoL....

Still waiting on the bank to get back to me on the loan thing... how long does it normally take them?

Pretty excited about visiting the boy and my friends in Dallas... I'm also turning 22 soon. I feel I should be 15 or something. A friend of mine has her birthday on August 7, so we'll be celebrating together... the weekend after, but still, together. We're rounding the peeps up.. we're hitting Dallas by surprise... LoL.. Eating and dancing... that's all we do :-P Two of very few things that just never get old..

The more I think about this, the least convinced I feel about this whole adult thing. Lol.. it seems so terribly overrated. I know it's coming... the enemy of age is lurking around the corner... darn this maturity clause... A veces quiciera salirme de todo esto, y olvidarme de que hay una realidad... y correr... y dejar las cosas que "debo" hacer atras... muy muy atras... seria terrible... y sinembargo el sentimiento no me deja. No logro sacarme de la cabeza que quiero ser egoista alguna vez y huir de todo. salir corriendo... viajar fisica y emocionalmente, y dejarlo todo atras. jaja... maybe I shouldnt have gone to Spain... People: do not go to Europe. o si van... despilfarren todo... jaja... desintoxiquense...

gone to find something to do with myself... school really needs to start soon.

This blogging thing...

On September 15th of 2005, I wrote the following post:

Posting something personal for the first time.
I made a new friend a couple weeks ago. He has introduced me to this blogging idea, and I have to admit I find it to be quite a challenging experience. An online journal is just that: a public record of one's personal life. I have had a journal before. I'm just a little concerned about making it public. I am unsure as to how open I can be, since I will be writing with the constant awareness that I might actually have an audience... pretty scary. Yet at the same time I realize that this might help me organize my thoughts and stay true to myself. After all, life itself is public, and perhaps a little insight will explain a lot. I've always believed in transparency, but aren't we all subject to interpretation? Two warnings: First, I write both in English and Spanish. It makes it easier for me, and after all, I think I am writing this for purely selfish reasons : ) ... for me, for my friends, for my family... if you were meant to know it, you'll probably hear it from me before realizing you need a Spanish-English dictionary. And second: please, take it all with a grain of salt. This is, after all, a first-person point of view, and is charged with all the pros and cons of an insider's perspective.So there, that's my introduction. I'm going to try to concentrate on my essay now. I'm still wondering what my main argument for this paper really is... and believe me, that's not a good thing.

I've been thinking about this blogging thing for a while now. When I first started blogging, I had a completely different approach to it than I do now.. I didn't actually have an audience, to start with, and I didn't truly expect to have one (at least not other than my amazing friend Janie, who had been blogging for a while, and my new "friend," to whom I felt I could be completely honest from the very start). The idea of my blog was not to keep my friends updated. I can do that when I see them or talk to them on the phone. This was supposed to be a journal -one with the helpful, sobering restriction of a possible audience- but still a personal journal. I've found myself doing spellchecks lately.. and deleting strange-sounding phrases from my posts, fearing I've said something that might affect someone else. I've also found I don't enjoy blogging quite as much... or learn from it... or truly express things as I did before. I think I've become too aware of the public side of blogging and have forgotten that this is, after all, a journal. So I suppose this post is an experiment (if it doesnt work I'll just go back to normal journals.. God only knows what sort of trouble this thing might get me into)... some sort of a warning, maybe... that I'll try to go back to blogging for myself.. for ..purely ..selfish ..reasons ...again ..even if I'll share it with you. So I thought it might be a good idea to apologize beforehand for all the silly, unexplained, and inexplicable things I might say (or might have said already)... and for the Spanish.. and for all that stuff. If you have somehow been invited to this site, please take everything with a grain of salt ;) This is, after all, a first-person point of view, and is charged with all the pros and cons of an insider's perspective...

martes, julio 25, 2006

I... Am... Back....

from San Antonio.

There is a mess downstairs...
and the pictures are nowhere to be found... but I'll show you the pictures of my grandparents and Davidito as soon as the shoes and the clothes and the 10 tons of "stuff" that are currently covering the floor of half my house disappear...
Neither one of my grandparents had met the little guy... and he is growing so much so fast that had we not visited soon they would have never seen him as a baby :P ! Or at least it seems like it to me... he is already trying to walk and he acts like he can talk. Jeje... sometimes he gets angry that we don't talk back to him or seem to understand what he is "saying." They do grow so fast...

We had lots of fun... we didn't kill each other... We saw the Alamo and went to the museums (even to the wax museum and the Ripey's believe it or not :P!) and we went to Sea World :-D Fun times. I also hadn't seen my cousin Francisco in a good while, so it was great to bug the life out of him again. He has a [yes, ladies and gentlemen... just one, stable] girlfriend now and he is so happy with his job... he seems like such an adult... and he was so very helpful. He has turned into a very practical, get-it-done-and-don't-worry type of guy. Calm and effective. I loved it. He also has white hair... so strange...

And speaking of strange hair... my sister and my brother-in-law have dreadlocks. Deadlocks? What's the word? Maybe neither... lol... they both sound terrible... Well, I mean those strips of stranded hair Jamaicans get... and I've heard you can get them naturally if you just don't wash your hair :P ! Well, those.

aaaand... I did my sister's. I did! My aunt -a professional stylist- taught me how to. It is actually a very simple process... a little messy... but fairly easy... hehe... We'll see if they work out! I even attached "extra" hair to her head. Blond and red hair. I know it souns like a lot, but it doesnt show as much, given the fact that my sister's hair is dark enough to conceal most of it. But yeah... I can't believe Mom let her do it. And I don't know if my sister's worse (crazy worse) than me for letting ME do it... for ASKING me to do it. OoOoor if I'm the craziest one for actually doing it for her... at what? 2 o'clock in the morning? It was fun, though. You should have seen my Grandmother's face. Luckily Grandpa Joe is too old to see it. He still said they should just cut their hair if they didnt like it... they probably will... eventually... when they look at themselves in the mirror... muajajajja...

miércoles, julio 19, 2006

A little randomness..



joys:
leaving to San Antonio to visit grandma tomorrow!
Weddings!
spending time with my family
taking the kids out
summertime (extreme) laziness
completed projects
time to (guiltlessly) surf the net
“talking” to the boy (almost) every day
amazing home-cooked meals
not doing summer lessons with the kids anymore
Shopping

concerns:
Tests!
Kiddoes growing up
Harvard loans and I-20
(IF all works out, I MUST get scholarships for next year)

Not using time very wisely
acute boredom (perhaps due to extreme laziness?)
I have a couple “lost” friends (where the heck are you guys?!)
Do my parents ever read this thing?
Deadlines…
…public speaking..

Things I have yet to do:
…Learn how to cook desserts
Learn how to knit (something other than a scarf..)
Paint the .. decorative stripe? …along my mom’s room’s walls
Exercise? (yeah… won’t happen this summer)
…Read things on topics not related to RS on ENG
Start a big painting already!
Buy tickets.. jeje…

Amazing things from B&B’s wedding:
The boy in a suit!!
The groom’s dad’s ice cream joke (so… do I get ice cream if we go back?)
The bride’s mom’s knitting ( ok.. making an addition to the to do list)
The wedding spot (is there anything cozier than a wedding by the beach?)
Fireworks
The flowers on the cake
Dunkin Doughnuts
Girls night out fashion show : )
Living room hanging out time at the Little House
Lobster-eating training (taught by professionals!)


Things I’ve always enjoyed
..Pictures
Starbucks Coffee..
Letters and cards..
Desk stuff!
..DAVIDITO!! …and other good looking boys..
Comfy places
Well written books (even if they’re terrible books)
Mooovies!
Randomness
rainy days
…late night conversations..
Poetry in Spanish
good music
did I mention shopping already?
bossing the kids around…
Alpha Psi Lambda
…and all the strange conversations I have with alumni…
Watching people’s reactions…
People-watching in general..
..teaching… when I know what Im talking about…
Trova
Museums.. when I have the time to enjoy them
Sketchy paintings

Faceys

viernes, julio 07, 2006

Congratulations

Congratulations to the most beautiful new wife and to her husband.. May the Lord bless you always!
It was a pleasure meeting you both. Have fun and take lots of pictures : )


Hmmm.... Now I have to think of a new name for your blog :) !