Affiliate organizations, general boards, national associations and such…
UGH! I’ve been reading.. or.. well, semi-memorizing the United Methodist Church website for clues of what is out there that I would like to be a part of. I don’t understand why, if I absolutely crave planning and organization, can the mere mention of vaguely political labels and structures give me such an ugly feeling of nausea. Maybe it’s the memory of my heart broken parents leaving the politics of Methodism behind… sort of behind. Or that ugly stomach discomfort I used to get during conferences when we were all waiting to see if it’d be time to pack and say goodbye to everyone again. Maybe I just quite honestly don’t like that tricky, deceptive side that politics will always have –I don’t know if I’m sharp enough to keep up without some disregard of my own personal values. That last sentence alone sounds ugly enough.
Whatever it is, how does one get rid of it? This… thing… that is … so ugly sometimes but also very often necessary, and so useful, and SO beneficial? How can I be a part of that “Church and Society” tab without going crazy (--er)? Will I make a difference in the kind of small organization I prefer? Maybe it is a big fat lie that revolutionary changes can only be made through the masses. Wesley might have disagreed with me, though! Maybe my “preferences” will only get me stuck in an unproductive, mediocre hole of contentment. Or maybe I am altogether too problematical. Maybe I am missing the beauty of the simple life. Of making a true and lasting difference, one life at a time.
Why do I feel like I have to do everything? Sometimes it is so overwhelming that I feel I have done nothing in comparison to that gigantic original goal… If I didn’t think like this, though, what would keep me on check? What is it that drives great leaders, if it isn’t the fear that things could remain the same? If a great leader needs a great label, though, and colossal structures, and ridiculous amounts of attention… then maybe I can remain an ordinary person doing… um.. random acts of crazy greatness.
miércoles, agosto 29, 2007
martes, agosto 28, 2007
fotillos!!
todos en la playa!
chicos guapos ;)
Abi, Ryan y yo :)
what were we doing that whole time? :P
Abi's XV
Abi y Misael
Dana all dressed up :)
miércoles, agosto 22, 2007
Miscellaneous
Anybody amazed that I can spell *miscellaneous* but not *project*? That was a Spanglish slip :P (proyecto is the word in Spanish :P)
Anyway... here goes my little point-by-point rambling of the day... uh.. definitely not in order of importance :P
* My dad is super sweet. He and mom came back home ridiculously late after a school meeting, and mom wanted a coffee. when they realized we’re out of milk, my sleepy and waaay overworked father ran out the door --and came back with a smile. He had gone to the superstore (the little neighborhood store was closed by then) just to get milk, just so mom could have her coffee. THAT, my friends, is love.
* HELP!! Donate to the Red Cross, the Salvation Army, and even the Mexican Army relief campaign. Hurricane Dean has left a lot of Latin American people homeless… lets do all we can. A tiny bit goes a long way :)
* Calderon is giving his first Reporte de Gobierno on Sept 1. They are about as long as American “State of the Nation” speeches… but if you speak/understand Spanish and can deal with a little Mexican politics, well, this should be an interesting speech to listen to :P
* I have a feeling that my insomnia is back. sigh.
* Dana is well again :)! She leaves the hospital tomorrow. Gracias al Sen~or!
* My parents are moving to Anapra! It’s official. They have started the construction of the house. Living so far away from the mission has not been the best idea for them, and they want a 1store house for when they get old.. so, that’s that. They are moving. Crazy people. I get the sneaky suspicion that deep down inside they just miss moving places –That’s all it is :P They’d just gotten too used to the itinerancy.. :P
* And just for kickers, sad songs remind Q of me :P ... hehe... I love you sweetieeee :*
Anyway... here goes my little point-by-point rambling of the day... uh.. definitely not in order of importance :P
* My dad is super sweet. He and mom came back home ridiculously late after a school meeting, and mom wanted a coffee. when they realized we’re out of milk, my sleepy and waaay overworked father ran out the door --and came back with a smile. He had gone to the superstore (the little neighborhood store was closed by then) just to get milk, just so mom could have her coffee. THAT, my friends, is love.
* HELP!! Donate to the Red Cross, the Salvation Army, and even the Mexican Army relief campaign. Hurricane Dean has left a lot of Latin American people homeless… lets do all we can. A tiny bit goes a long way :)
* Calderon is giving his first Reporte de Gobierno on Sept 1. They are about as long as American “State of the Nation” speeches… but if you speak/understand Spanish and can deal with a little Mexican politics, well, this should be an interesting speech to listen to :P
* I have a feeling that my insomnia is back. sigh.
* Dana is well again :)! She leaves the hospital tomorrow. Gracias al Sen~or!
* My parents are moving to Anapra! It’s official. They have started the construction of the house. Living so far away from the mission has not been the best idea for them, and they want a 1store house for when they get old.. so, that’s that. They are moving. Crazy people. I get the sneaky suspicion that deep down inside they just miss moving places –That’s all it is :P They’d just gotten too used to the itinerancy.. :P
* And just for kickers, sad songs remind Q of me :P ... hehe... I love you sweetieeee :*