uh... yeah.

I am not WILLINGLY going out.
Ask me what I had for lunch today.
I had chicken caldo. Meaning chicken and spaghetti. That was it. Usually, I would add potatoes and cilantro and carrots… an elote or two… some cabbage. I would put rice in it, not spaghetti. I’d add some spices… I would make some bread…

But not this time. The reason? I have almost run out of groceries. I do have some spices. And I had chicken, and spaghetti… aand that was it. so that’s what I ate. The other option was to make a trip to the store. And of course, I had sworn I’d do it. I have to go out at some point anyways, since I need to go get some books from the library. But mind you, I am cold.

I went through the whole ritual again. I dressed warm… yup, I bundled up and everything. I put on my hat, my gloves, and took my keys. I was ready, there was no doubt in my mind. I walked downstairs, opened the door, and then finally thought: must I? No, I mustn’t. I will not.

And I didn’t.

I know.

Don’t say it. Don’t say it bc I just had my mediocre lunch and now I must go through it all again. Only that this time, whether I want to or not, I will have to do it. I will take my hike. Sniff. And when Im done, I will take another hike back here.

Oh Lord.

I hate the north.